Ok - I am officially bored out of my mind
being a hermit is NOT fun
thank you Roxy for the visit last night to get me outside in the dark and the snacks and well even when you laughed at my shades.

I was feeling very cranky and sorry for myself and roxy cheered me up and will have to keep cheering me up all day today and tomorrow so all you out there who would take pitty on a poor blind shut in lol CALLLLLLL MEEEEEEEE

thanks and no progress to report yet on if it worked or not it says that it could take several days to be able to see

But I have nothing better to do so I will keep you posted!

I am done
i survived
i had to look at the brightest light I have ever seen
and 83 seconds felt like an eternity as I sat there thinking of the light at the end of the tunel
thinking Jesus I'm coming home lol

Dr was optomistic that this is going to work
could it be that my vision will be restored?
Even nearly normal would be better then hardly anything.

Now I am sporting these humongo sun glasses
you know the kind that fit OVER your glasses?!
Ya and I have to wear them seriously no joke for the next 2 days minus the sleeping

Paris Hilton eat your heart out this chick is HAWT!

YEEE HAW!

so I finally have a diagnosis for my eye

Ocular Histoplasmosis

I had another test yesterday and there seems to be abnormal bleeding in the back of my eye which is what is causing the blind spots

I go for a lazer surgery at 2pm

I'll keep you all posted

I know mostly everyone on flickr has seen this already but I am not sure why but this is one of my favorite pictures of my nephew. He makes me laugh histerically!

I love when Angela calls
we talk for an hour or two about things that we feel passionate about
we talk about things we find histerical
and laugh uncontrolably

Angela is like fresh air to my heart!

Can't wait to hang out with you tomorrow!

i felt like talking to you today
i wanted to tell you about my job
how i went to owen sound this week
how big christian is getting.

i wanted to tell you tina is very much in love and is moving to hanover
how that makes me kind of sad because now there is no one left there for me to visit
kind of feels final now
home town is still home town but the people who made it home are all gone

i wanted to hear you tell me about where you had been traveling to
about all the crazy outlandish things that you find so normal
about all the crazy outlandish people you associate with

the things that once annoyed me greatly are the greatest things i am missing today

from my perspective.....it still feels strange that you are gone.

As promised here are a couple of pictures of the nephew - I look not so great but what do you expect it was a pajama party lol

I had such a fantastic but way too short visit with my priceless nephew. I cannot believe how much he has grown in a year. He looked so odd to me. All tall and lanky and SUPER SKINNY - not sure how he stays so skinny he eats non stop. I asked him "Christian do you have a hollow leg" "No Aunty Beth I have 2 of them". He is so cute and we played and laughed histerically - he can make me laugh like no other. We cuddled a lot and watched a movie. We read stories together and just had a day and a half of fun. Talk about tugging at my heart strings though this morning before I left I was sending him off to school and he said "I did not get enough time with you Aunty Beth, now I am never gonna see you again for so long and can mommy and I come live with you" UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH

I would give that kid the moon if he asked like that and if I had a long enough rope.......will post pictures when I get home from work.

Oh Tina seems to be doing very well also lol
Very happy and very in love and her soon to be fiance is very nice - I got to meet him and he treats her so well so I guess that is all that matters

well back to work!

I am sooooooo excited! This is my nephew Christian who I have not seen in just over a year now. I am going to go make the 3 hour drive to Owen Sound tomorrow for a couple of days so that I can FINALLY see him. The best part is that he has no idea that I am coming lol! I am going to just go and knock on his door and freak him out! We have plans to go to his soccor game and I could not think of anything better I would like to do with my time! Man am I excited!

I really hate packing.
I just sometimes wish that I could snap my fingers like Mary Poppins and all by belongings would do a happy little dance to their rightful boxes all the while me singing a cutesy little song.....if life were only that easy eh lol

Well, I don't really have a whole lot else to talk about at this point. I know I have such an exciting life lol but with getting ready to move it feels like that is the only thing I am thinking about even though I am the worlds biggest procrastinator

"the first step is looking at the boxes" Right Rox lol

OH! I almost forgot to add a picture in here of Joanne and I being totally ourselves and the way we are EVERY time we are together lol - CRAZY!

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just wanted to to put in a few pictures off the digital camera of the kids. I can't believe their 3 week visit ends in 2 more sleeps as joshy said. I love this kid so much! He's so smart! And the fact that I got Adam to sit still lol that in instelf is a great accomplishment! So anyway thats all for now just wanted to stick in a couple pics even if they are not the best quality!

Wall Of Memories was unveiled today at Mount Lawn Cemetary in Whitby. My mom did something very special for my brother and I. My dad is burried in the united states and we were not able to attend the burrial so neither one of us have ever been able to make the trip to his grave. My mom had his name put on the wall of memories so that we could have something to go and visit if we wanted to. It still does not feel the same to me and I do want to go to his grave but I will admit the gesture my mom made in doing this was just plain and simply beautiful. My dad's name was William (in case you can't see it there) lol. The ceremony was nice and they released a bunch of white doves when they unveiled the 2 mwmorials....kinda reminded me of touched by an angel lol. Anyway that was about the most excitement I have had since I went to the zoo last monday. This was far more special to me.

Ok so I went to the dentist today and got two fillings and then went to the opthomologist or however you spell it. Looks like I was right and my eye is getting worse. I have to go again to the hospital for ANOTHER florescein angiogram or whatever its called. It's where they put an IV in the back of my hand and inject me with an orange colour dye and then take photographs of the inside of my eye as the dye goes through my veins so they can see where there are leaks or gatherings of blood where there should not be. He had told me last time that it was inoperable and that there was no treatment so I am a little curious about why I am going through the bother of more testing but I have no idea. He said before that it was scar tissue and now if there is a blood leak somewhere I guess there is a treatment for the blood leak? Who knows it's just all very frustrating because my vission in that eye seems to be getting to the point where it's just all grey blobs. I can't read with it - very annoying. Just wanted to vent a little because to be honest I do feel rather helpless at the moment.

from my perspective...it feels like i am falling apart today

So it is now 100% official!

I'm moving!

This is a good move

saves me 200 a month

will be renting a room in the town house Steve Laing just bought

Steve is like a brother to me due to me and Joanne being so close so I trust him and thing this is going to work out really good!

I move in August 1st