I feel sentimental today
Steve has not put a christmas tree up in the living room yet so I went out to the garage and got my charlie brown christmas tree out and set it up in my bedroom and decorated it while listening to Christmas music.

That was the one thing, the one tradition where the only fight I can remember having in our family was who got to put the angel on the top of the tree that year.

We would put on the christmas cartoons and order pizza and decorate the house and sing along to the christmas cartoons you know - rudolf, the grinch, frosty and when we got older it didn't matter to us that cartoons were for kids it was just a given we would watch them and quote every line!

smiles, laughter, fun and happiness were not normal at my house and this is why I cherished this tradition so much. But today there was no pizza, and no family. Just me in my jammies in my bedroom singing along to my cd of christmas music and remembering days gone by with fond memories and a little tear in my eye.

I wish I could have even 5 minutes in that day again - even just to hear the sounds. I will just have to keep on cherishing them and looking forward to new beautiful memories.

from my perspective...i wish i could hear the laughter again