from my perspective...I am doing well. I am happy. I am learning. I hear my room mates daughter laughing, it's a great sound. I am hopefull. I am terrified, but I am ready to take on the world!

just to clarify for little miss Tammy lol
I do NOT have a secret potential boyfriend ha ha ha

you are so silly
if I had a boyfriend I would be shouting it from the rooftops lol

you should know that by now!

Anyway with the whole healthy eating and pilates I have now lost 10 pounds in 3 weeks!

I feel great and am actually getting comments from people that I seem much happier
I can't give all the credit to that though

I will be honest there are other reasons

I am still not wanting to say too much about it because I am trying to figure it all out still but I will say I am finding my way in life alot better then I used to :)

It's been a little while since my last post on here that talked about anything other then pilates lol. I just have not really known what to talk about really as pilates is really impacting my life for the better these days. I have been feeling really good and energetic from doing pilates. It has really made me start looking at a lot of things that need changing in my physical life and I can already see and feel a huge difference. There have been some other changes too in my life but I don't really feel like I want to talk about them right now lol. But all in all I am feeling a lot better then I have in a reallllllllly long time.

Anyway

I'll fill you all in more later as I feel more open to discuss lol

that's all for now I suppose I have to soon get ready for Pilates lol

from my perspective...i am becoming the new poster child for pilates!

Sure this may look easy but be warned lol it can cause injury to your face if not accomplished properly lol....it's all a great work out until someone falls off the ball lol. I love doing pilates - I have gotten better at it but this one was a challange today - I could not even get to that pose lol
my face hit the mat every time lol. However after just a week I am ALREADY seeing a difference - I am 100% sold on this!

faith

hoping

standing on

believing

whatever my lot thou hast taught me to say it is well, it is well with my soul

it's sometimes the only thing to hope in

when there are no other options

and the reports are final

first blog of the year

first pilates class of the year

i can't move

my everything hurts

took me 20 minutes to get out of bed and dressed today

no pain no gain right?

no resolutions - just life changes

off to an ok start

change of life = change of heart?

we'll see i guess

from my perspective...i'm in too much pain but it makes me optomistic lol

After working 10 days in a row I was very excited for a day off on the weekend!!!
but lo and behold 5:45am my phone rings and someone called in sick so off I go to work for 7 - 11 days in a row on about 3 hours sleep

"Hurt"

By Christina Aguilara

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face

You told me how proud you were but I walked away

If only I knew what I know todayI would hold you in my arms

I would take the pain away

Thank you for all you've done

Forgive all your mistakes

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To hear your voice again

Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss

You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me?

Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't doTo have just one more chance

To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself

If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much thatI've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous

It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

I just wanted to take the time to wish everyone a merry christmas and happy new year lots of love check ya in the new year!

I found myself with some time on my hands this afternoon while waiting for the dryer to do it's job and I thought I would write a little something.

something

HA HA HA am I funny or what lol

I am thinking today about some things I have been appreciating the last couple of days

1. Ikea in the day time is not very busy
2. Christmas songs on the radio
3. unexpected gifts from friends - hellllllllo digital camera!!
4. even short visits with friends I don't see often
5. the ability to just say what I have been wanting to say for a while to someone and that someone recieving it in a positive way - I am glad I could say it and it made me feel better that you were understanding that I was not mad at you - just frustrated with the circumstances
6. that I can see almost perfect out of 1 eye - better then not seeing at all right
7. that I am not on call this week
8. that my grandpa was not seriously hurt when he fell down the stairs last week - he's still sore and has to use a walker at the moment but did not break anything
9. that I got the day off last saturday to spend with my family and jeff's birthday party. It was so good to just see extended relatives and their kids!
10. that joanne and ryan and the boys and NEW BABY will be here tomorrow!

Well here I am again squeezing in a quick blog between work and an errand lol. Today I am going to go meet roxy's friend - oh no I can't remember her name lol. Roxy thinks we would like each other.

Anyway, I don't really have anything exciting to say. I work all durring the holidays 10 days in a row. I don't even know what the point of saying things at work to stick up for myself anymore. I seem to be like the wind no one really listens to.

The new year will HAVE to bring some changes. I have some thinking to do but I have been so busy at work I have not had time to think.

Ok well enough griping and complaining I need to stay positive and upbeat

that is all

I say good day!

I am not sure if anyone else feels like this this Christmas but my issue is this is usually the case AFTER you buy the gifts. Because of my recent eye injection that I had to pay for I am starting off like this. I know that Christmas is not about the gifts but it's hard not to feel bad. I have had to go without some things lately in order just to even get some really cheap gifts for my family. I am trying to think of other ways that I can give them something worth while and make up some kind of gift card for like - I will clean your car or I will scrub your toilet - you know all the things people hate to do. I hate to do them too but I want to give people something meaningful that they can really say thanks I hate that job and you are going to do it for me lol. If anyone has some good ideas please let me know! Anyway. That's all for now I have to raid my piggy bank now to see if I can afford a coffee with my friend lol - desperate times call for desperate mesasures and I REALLLLLLLY want a timmy's lol

in case I don't post again before Christmas I wish you all a beautiful holiday time with family and loved ones and may the new year bring happiness and wonderful memories!!

I forgot to post this picture last week. It is myself and Richard, My pen pal from Ireland. He was in toronto for a couple of days and I got the chance to meet him after close to 2 years of e-mails and the such. Anyway I thought I would share the picture (I look kinda bad because we had been out in the wind downtown toronto for a couple of hours at that point lol)

Well I survived last week - I did not post because I worked 52 hours and was freaking exhausted. There really is nothing too new and exciting in my world these days and all. Pretty boring I know but that is the life of a single working gal at times. don't see enough of my friends for various reasons. Don't see enough of my home for other various reasons (WORK).

I Had a great talk with an old friend on MSN last night and it was so good to do some catching up - even if some of it was a little surprizing lol.

my room mate got a cat and I am allergic and he shuts him in the basement when he goes to work and I acn hear the poor thing meowing and I feel terrible but I have to work tonight I can't be all stuffy and sneezy - oh it's so mean I know but I TOLD him I am allergic

I have another injection in my eye tomorrow morning and I am NOT looking forward to that in the least. I just hope it works and speaking of working I need to go get ready

I feel sentimental today
Steve has not put a christmas tree up in the living room yet so I went out to the garage and got my charlie brown christmas tree out and set it up in my bedroom and decorated it while listening to Christmas music.

That was the one thing, the one tradition where the only fight I can remember having in our family was who got to put the angel on the top of the tree that year.

We would put on the christmas cartoons and order pizza and decorate the house and sing along to the christmas cartoons you know - rudolf, the grinch, frosty and when we got older it didn't matter to us that cartoons were for kids it was just a given we would watch them and quote every line!

smiles, laughter, fun and happiness were not normal at my house and this is why I cherished this tradition so much. But today there was no pizza, and no family. Just me in my jammies in my bedroom singing along to my cd of christmas music and remembering days gone by with fond memories and a little tear in my eye.

I wish I could have even 5 minutes in that day again - even just to hear the sounds. I will just have to keep on cherishing them and looking forward to new beautiful memories.

from my perspective...i wish i could hear the laughter again

Well HE'S HERE!!!

Lucas Robert Ryan Friesen was born last night!!

Ryan and Joanne (Laing) welcomed in their 3rd boy into the world last night Sunday Nov 19th!!!

He weighed 7 pounds not sure how many ounces (lol)

Jo was in hard labour for just under 1 hour - she has babies very quickly!!

Anyway I am just very happy for them. She says this concludes their family lol no more thats it.

Can't wait to meet Lucas when they come home for Christmas!

Just an update for the sake of updating lol

sorry to all the friends I have not had a chance to see much this week

We have a huge new client at work and it's been busy busy and we have about 6 more starting over the next couple weeks so that is going to bring in some money for us so we can actually HIRE more people so that is exciting! Anyway I am well and happy these days.

ok that's my life to date

I am sitting here at the computer and as I type there is a rather handsome man laying on my bed
blond hair and blue eyes
watching my tv

ok so it's only Jeff lol

Just wanted to be silly

It's nice to get visits every so often

or having lunch with him on his break at work

even when he purposley makes me crazy annoying me just "because I love the reaction I get"

well I figured I have not blogged anything in a while I would today

It's rainy and cold and I have to go to work soon but ya

thats all

it's cold in my office right now

I have many thoughts running through my head at the moment and not sure what to do about them lol

thoughts that shall remain locked on the inside

sometimes they are better when they stay locked up lol

on a total different topic

why do I feel so often like I want to do things just to prove a point?

I know this is such a random blog and there are no background comments and no one has any idea what I am refering to or talking about and I am not about to start to even tell anything lol

ok enough of that

My sister is getting married!!

I am very excited about that however as the maid of honor in a city 3.5 hours away from her she is making it kind of difficult to help her start planning when she is not returning my phone calls or e-mails - hmph - I guess she is busy.

I wonder how my nephew feels about this? I have not had the chance to ask him where Tina is not around - he tells me secrets - I am the cool aunty. I hope that he is feeling good about it. If he is not I will try to help him understand. Because She is happier then I have ever seen her so I know Chris is good for her.

I am still not seeing any better and the eye surgery was a week ago

from my perspective....my eye is pissin me off

in all fairness I need to say a friend of mine brought up the following concerning information about the flu shot that I have never seen in any of the documents I have read. I think it is so important that we research ALL the facts and I thought I would add his information now -

"The best protection from infectious diseases (and the flu) is a robust immune system and healthy daily habits - NOT the flu shot.In fact, if you have taken the flu shot more than 8 times in the last 10 years you have an 80% chance of getting Alzheimers. Now THERE'S an encouraging fact!That said, get the facts about the flu shot. Although it's becoming increasingly difficult to separate facts from the hype created by the media and the government, the facts are out there.There are potential dangers to the flu vaccine. Two years ago I had a reation to the flu shot that made my head spin for 6 weeks - literally. I experienced Benign Positional Vertigo within 24 hours of the shot and I couldn't get out of bed.I would encourage you to do some research and consider visiting a Naturopathic Doctor. There are alternatives for staying healthy and you should look into them. "

So be very thorough in your research because I had NO IDEA. Not like any of you would have run out and got a flu shot just because I said to or anything lol. Just be informed!