I am stressed
I am exhausted
I have a face full of zits
I need a nap
I wish I could beam my belongings over to the new place
I do not want to be at work right now
I want weekends off
I want to go to a beach
I want to hug my nephew
I want
I don't want
I am
I have

I know this sounds like complaining but that is not what it is
I just felt like making statements
they are true
I am just utterly exhausted and this move has brought on some emotions that I did not think that it would. It's weird. I cried because I like where I am, change is hard for me. I cried because I could no longer afford to really live alone. I cried because I love my neighbors and will miss them. I even cried because I will miss Max, Brewtis and Lucky my next door dogs. They are not very well taken care of sadly and I looked out for them. I know that sounds dumb but I am used to my routine. I am overwhelmed. I mean it does make me feel somewhat releaved that I will be able to afford to actually eat, or go see a movie or whatever. I love the colour my room mate painted my room. I love that my room is so big. I love that there is a pool at the complex there. See good vs. bad. Happy vs. sad there is just no pleasing me some days now is there. I think once it's all done and over with I will be ok. I just had been so busy that i never stopped to realize what I was doing.

from my perspective.....i am excitedly sad if that makes sense.