sometimes I don't understand god's plans
sometimes so many things just don't seem fair
I cannot understand how horrible it would be

my friend from college and his wife had to watch their 2 year old daughter emma die today
suddenly
at their home
she was playing with a ball
she choked on it

the ordinary right now seems so grusomely extraordinary

I am filled with heartache for what they must be going through
prayers hardly seem like enough

from my perspective...i am questioning reason