Some days I just don't know what to say
Some days I don't understand the master plan
is there even a master plan?
or do we make it up as we go along ?

Some times it doesn't make sense
a person can only be stretched so much
is there a breaking point

I REALLY want to believe in myself
I REALLY want to believe in God
I REALLY want to believe in God in me

If ever I needed some answers
no not answers - solutions

I need to figure out what I am doing wrong
and then do the opposite

I need to learn how to pray
I need to learn how to receive
I need to learn period

Is it true that when you reach the end of the rope that God is your safety net and if so is there a safe way to find out for sure?

I hate not feeling safe. I am so frustrated with myself at the moment because these are answers I SHOULD know and things that SHOULD have been applied to my life a LONG time ago

from my perspective....I think I am missing something