After working 10 days in a row I was very excited for a day off on the weekend!!!
but lo and behold 5:45am my phone rings and someone called in sick so off I go to work for 7 - 11 days in a row on about 3 hours sleep

"Hurt"

By Christina Aguilara

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face

You told me how proud you were but I walked away

If only I knew what I know todayI would hold you in my arms

I would take the pain away

Thank you for all you've done

Forgive all your mistakes

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To hear your voice again

Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss

You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me?

Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't doTo have just one more chance

To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself

If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much thatI've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous

It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

I just wanted to take the time to wish everyone a merry christmas and happy new year lots of love check ya in the new year!

I found myself with some time on my hands this afternoon while waiting for the dryer to do it's job and I thought I would write a little something.

something

HA HA HA am I funny or what lol

I am thinking today about some things I have been appreciating the last couple of days

1. Ikea in the day time is not very busy
2. Christmas songs on the radio
3. unexpected gifts from friends - hellllllllo digital camera!!
4. even short visits with friends I don't see often
5. the ability to just say what I have been wanting to say for a while to someone and that someone recieving it in a positive way - I am glad I could say it and it made me feel better that you were understanding that I was not mad at you - just frustrated with the circumstances
6. that I can see almost perfect out of 1 eye - better then not seeing at all right
7. that I am not on call this week
8. that my grandpa was not seriously hurt when he fell down the stairs last week - he's still sore and has to use a walker at the moment but did not break anything
9. that I got the day off last saturday to spend with my family and jeff's birthday party. It was so good to just see extended relatives and their kids!
10. that joanne and ryan and the boys and NEW BABY will be here tomorrow!

Well here I am again squeezing in a quick blog between work and an errand lol. Today I am going to go meet roxy's friend - oh no I can't remember her name lol. Roxy thinks we would like each other.

Anyway, I don't really have anything exciting to say. I work all durring the holidays 10 days in a row. I don't even know what the point of saying things at work to stick up for myself anymore. I seem to be like the wind no one really listens to.

The new year will HAVE to bring some changes. I have some thinking to do but I have been so busy at work I have not had time to think.

Ok well enough griping and complaining I need to stay positive and upbeat

that is all

I say good day!

I am not sure if anyone else feels like this this Christmas but my issue is this is usually the case AFTER you buy the gifts. Because of my recent eye injection that I had to pay for I am starting off like this. I know that Christmas is not about the gifts but it's hard not to feel bad. I have had to go without some things lately in order just to even get some really cheap gifts for my family. I am trying to think of other ways that I can give them something worth while and make up some kind of gift card for like - I will clean your car or I will scrub your toilet - you know all the things people hate to do. I hate to do them too but I want to give people something meaningful that they can really say thanks I hate that job and you are going to do it for me lol. If anyone has some good ideas please let me know! Anyway. That's all for now I have to raid my piggy bank now to see if I can afford a coffee with my friend lol - desperate times call for desperate mesasures and I REALLLLLLLY want a timmy's lol

in case I don't post again before Christmas I wish you all a beautiful holiday time with family and loved ones and may the new year bring happiness and wonderful memories!!

I forgot to post this picture last week. It is myself and Richard, My pen pal from Ireland. He was in toronto for a couple of days and I got the chance to meet him after close to 2 years of e-mails and the such. Anyway I thought I would share the picture (I look kinda bad because we had been out in the wind downtown toronto for a couple of hours at that point lol)

Well I survived last week - I did not post because I worked 52 hours and was freaking exhausted. There really is nothing too new and exciting in my world these days and all. Pretty boring I know but that is the life of a single working gal at times. don't see enough of my friends for various reasons. Don't see enough of my home for other various reasons (WORK).

I Had a great talk with an old friend on MSN last night and it was so good to do some catching up - even if some of it was a little surprizing lol.

my room mate got a cat and I am allergic and he shuts him in the basement when he goes to work and I acn hear the poor thing meowing and I feel terrible but I have to work tonight I can't be all stuffy and sneezy - oh it's so mean I know but I TOLD him I am allergic

I have another injection in my eye tomorrow morning and I am NOT looking forward to that in the least. I just hope it works and speaking of working I need to go get ready