So far the highlight of my december and the worst thing that happened to me this december both happened on the same day! Dec 6, 2007 started off as a fantastic day - IT WAS BON JOVI DAY!!! I know I have seen them 5 times now SO FAR but it's always super exciting for me (see photo below lol) But as I was getting ready I dropped a battary charger - not a cell phone one - one of those big one's you plug into the wall for rechargables. I dropped it from about 6 feet up off a shelf directly onto my bare toe - BROKE IT. Do you think that stopped me from having a fantastic time at the concert?!!! NO WAY! Apart from that I have not really done anything exciting lately - you know me and my disease and all "chronic workalotis" I even work christmas day. and today I am on day 7 or a 10 day stretch - groan. Oh well I need the money to get gifts and concert tickets and stuff :P Stay tuned for February....my birthday month and going to see rascal flatts with Jeff and moving in to a house with Jeff - Move over Will and Grace you aint got nothin on us - ok so we're pretty much identical - pfft

To Do Today:

get dressed
go to the grocerty store
bring food home
put it away
bring laundry up to bedroom
fold it and put it away
call about new tires
go out and get gas
go pick up tash and Jerome
go pick up jeff
go to swiss chalet to meet ben
drive all them home and go home

sometimes I feel like my days off are not my own. everyone has something they want from me mostly time. I just sometimes feel like I never seem to have a time when no one wants me. It's annoying, it's nice, it's frustrating, it's nice

mostly it is tiring and makes me a little cranky
I kinda want a vacation away from EVERYONE

ok have to start my list

I've been much more easily annoyed with people lately

I have to remember that it's not worth being so bothered about

I have to remember just to do all I can do the best i can do

Anything more then that - well it will just have to wait

I have to remember that sometimes I will need to set aside what i need to do to help others and not get so bent out of shape over their interupting my work.

(just trying to give myself a little pep talk before work lol)

The weather outside is grey and cold the last couple of days.
I am tired and sore.
I feel old.

I work alot but I have no choice
you have to work to pay the bills


Don't get me wrong, I am thankful I am employed and I like my job - for the most part

I just feel old.
I just feel bored.
I just feel uninterested.

Life is what we make it to be. I know that.
I just have not figured out how to make mine better or more fun yet.

How does someone meet people, new people, when they have wierd shifts.
For that matter - WHERE do young 30 somethings even hang out?


any suggestions? I thought about joining a club, a dance class.....anything but I find most of these things take place on the weekends and I work lol

ugh

HiGh-PoInT's Of My SuMmEr

Just taking a moment here to post some pictures of a few things I was able to do this summer. Other then working that is!

yet again I have fallen into the cycle of working way too much - at 48 hours so far this week and there is still 1 more day for someone to call in sick and Beth to swoop in and save the day

when can someone save MY day?

I am just getting worn out and frustrated that I do so many favors and it never seems to go full circle (with a few exceptions)

there are stories that I could tell but really why bother beyond hey beth can you take a shift for me and I owe ya one - but when

lol ok I think I need to go to bed

I had a really good time playing racko and skipbo with roxy and jamie last night - or should i say i had a good time watching roxy win every round we played lol

how could i have forgotten she always wins games.

sigh

but it was still fun

but now i have to get my butt in gear and dress for work

I Finally got to go see my nephew after over a year I had such a good time! Hard to believe he is 9 already. He's a great kid!

sometimes I don't understand god's plans
sometimes so many things just don't seem fair
I cannot understand how horrible it would be

my friend from college and his wife had to watch their 2 year old daughter emma die today
suddenly
at their home
she was playing with a ball
she choked on it

the ordinary right now seems so grusomely extraordinary

I am filled with heartache for what they must be going through
prayers hardly seem like enough

from my perspective...i am questioning reason

Well I drove Crash to the Vet today and it was very hard to leave her there. She is being spayed this morning and I really am not sure what to do with myself as I wait to go get her this afternoon. I hope everything goes ok but all I could think about while I drove away is her little face looking through the cage bars like she was in a little prison and how scared she was and meowing at me......WAAAAAAAHAHAHA it was a little heart breaking really but I know it has to be done other wise I will most likely become the crazy cat lady way sooner then I should and from what I hear if they go into heat they are incredably loud and crazy and I don't want that either. I know it is right by why does it make me feel so darn guilty. Sigh.

Well Happy July everyone! I am noticing more and more how badly I have been slacking in the blog department. I guess there is not much to write about except my job or my cat so I begin to think that would get really boring really fast. I have just recently finished a great book. One that really challanged a lot of ideas that are out there. I personally think there are a lot of ideas and opionions that NEED to be challanged. Anyway, Highly recommend it.

So I thought what the hey I might as well also throw in a recent picture of myself while I am at it lol. I guess I should get back to cleaning up before I have to go back to work - i am exhausted and need a vacation badly

oh to have my life slow down
feels good
sleeping in
being lazy all day
got to get back into the routine of staying up later thought

Still roasting in my bedroom
still no aircon

need money for the plastic to seal the window

I am so hot
air con still not put in
melting
sweating

ugh

snow.......PLEASE

I am finding it hard to write on here lately....for one it's summer and I am trying to get out and have a life but I am working 2 jobs at the moment and today was my 14th day working in a row and I don't get another day off til next sunday - ugh. But I did just give in my 2 weeks notice in Toronto and going back to the job here that is local and maybe getting in some more education. Some people thought this was a bad move but I feel right about it. I also have been wanting to do some volunteer stuff and well that was just not possible before. Now I just have to listen to my mom lecture me - ugh

Tash and Andrea on Parlament Hill!

Drivin with Tash

Andea and I

wow! It's been a very long while since I wrote anything in my blog I guess all this nice weather we have been having is beckoning me outdoors! I hope that everyone had a very relaxing and great long weekend! I know I did! I went on a road trip with my good friend Natashia to Ottawa and just spent time with her and walked around taking photographs! We even had a chance to spend most of the weekend with my friend Andrea who I had not seen in 9 years since working with her at lakeshore camp! It was just all together good for my soul! I've added some photos of our time on here but now I must sneak out to get my hair cut but I will be better at posting at LEAST once a week!

finally, after working so many hours beth is going on a road trip this weekend! I am very excited!

I attended my first (indoor) BBQ of the season last night at my friend Mike and his girlfriends Kris's house last night it was great fun and meeting some new people turned out great. This lovely girl and I had a lot in common and it was nice to meet someone who is as grossed out touching raw meat as I am - don't ask lol. I just realized I did not give her my e-mail - oh well I can do that through Mike. Mike and Kris are such nice people. It was nice to get away from Oshawa (they live in Toronto) for a night and meet people who do not have any preconcieved ideas about who I am and how I am and all that. I have kinda been craving that lately. Kind of like the Cheers theme song only Some times you wanna go where nobody knows your name. I know that may sound totally odd but who ever said I was normal lol

Well I did it! I made it to my 10 year Bible College reunion in Eston Saskatchewan! The whole class was not able to make it so here is about half of us. It was so wonderful to reconnect I cannot even put into words! It was like no time had passed! That is one very special thing about our class is we were so close we were like a family and even though I had not seen any of them in 10 years I still felt just as close to them as I did back in school! I just had such a great time! That is all I can say really! It was emotional and overwhelming, encouraging and uplifting. It felt like I was home.

I know yesterday's post ended rather abruptly lol but I was at work and the phone rang and I forgot to go back and fix that lol. Any way I have just arrived in Saskatoon - man I remember why I was not wanting to come back after graduation lol there is still a little snow on the ground and the houses are dumpy and it's grey and blah here. Oh well I am here for my 10 year college reunion so that part I am REALLY looking forward to! That is tomorrow. I am staying at an old work mate's place and he just left for work and will not be home until around 8:30 which is 10:30 Ontario Time so I am going to be so tired at that point because that is normally my bed time oh well what can ya do right?! Anyway I am very anxious to see my friends again it is going to be amazing - I hope anyway. So I just wanted to stop in and finish what I was saying yesterday and I will be home sunday at around noon time - ya - 534 bucks to be here a day and a half - call me crazy hee hee

well hello there veryone it has been a while since I wrote because I have taken on a couple of side jobs so that I could afford to go to my class reunion in sask this weekend!

I would like to take a moment and introduce you to the newest member of my family - ok so it's only me so he makes it a family lol! Meet Captain Crash! But I just call him Crash because well I can! Can you believe someone actually abandoned this little cutie?!

I just learned how to import my blog onto my facebook - now I am just testing it out
Oh the things I learn when i am home sick and in my jammies lol

**Ode To The Flu**

Tissues Tissues everywhere
not sure why I can blow no air

stuffed up nose and aching head
Why did I get out of bed

my body hurts and my nose is red
I think I wish that I were dead

I lay and cry and medicate
and all I can do is sleep and wait

Am I hungry or am I not?
All I know is that I am full of snot

I try to eat it's way too hard
I can't breathe at all
please someone send me a get well card


LOL I have been sick all week and just starting to feel better I have never slept so much in my life. I still feel blah and have no energy but at least I can function. Anyway I realized it has been a couple weeks since I wrote anything and that I have been really slacking with my blog so here i am!

from my perspective...tylenol flu night time is my friend

as a lot of you know yesterday was the 2 year anniversary of when my dad died. He did have a tiny bit of Jewish roots (and when I say timy I mean tinly lol) But he was very proud of that tiny portion and was always talking about Isreal and Jeruselem and all that. So Yesterday I went and got a memorial tattoo with my dads name in hebrew (I didn't want to get just his name lol) Anyway it hurt but I kept thinking about the meaning behind it the whole time. Anyway here is a pic of me going through the pain. I believe in this picture I was staring at a little happy face someone doodled on the wall. I kept singing dancing queen in my head - not sure why but whatever helps ya get through the pain lol

things I am happy about today

Having seen Angela on Friday (I was happy to see everyone at the birthday party but particularly my longl ost sistah)

new glasses (which look a lot like Angela's coincidentally lol)

new job

birthday surprizes

dinners with friends and family

e-cards

phone calls

feeling loved

THAT I NOW FIT INTO SIZE 18 PANTS!! DOWN 2 SIZES HOLLA!

new shoes

new clothes to fit my new body

i can wear a belt and it actually fits!

a back bone that is growing stronger every day and that i am not putting up with crap anymore

de-dramafication

I am in a good place

I am happy

i am a new girl!

who would have thought that a life could change so much so fast

that i am raised out of the dung heap and for that I am most grateful!

it's been way too long since i have wrote anything in here so here i am

today was my birthday party and i had a nice time with my friends

got to see angela after FAR too long and the food was great, the chats were great and angela and i did a lot of laughing

then we went to amanda's house and played mad gab - this game is so funny you all should try it!

my new job is going well but it is an ajustment getting up so stinking early!

well I will post some b-day party pics as soon as I get them from roxy but i had a good time!

officially now down 15 pounds! WOOT WOOT!

it was your birthday yesterday
i thought of you often
i missed you
i wished for a moment with you

time goes by way too fast

i know you are gone but i wanted to say happy bithday anyway because it keeps your memory close

ok ok

the job

assistant to the national rep of an industrial equiptment supplier

mon-fri 7-3

benefits

how's that for a great opportunity!

I GOT A NEW JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 WEEKS NOTICE TOMORROW

LIFE IS HAPPENING SO FAST AROUND ME LATELY

WHICH END IS UP

ALL FLIPPED TURNED UPSIDE DOWN

OR MAYBE IT'S JUST FINALLY RIGHTSIDE UP AFTER SO LONG UPSIDE DOWN

I DON'T KNOW BUT TRANSFORMATIONS ARE FUN

RIDE THE WAVE

AS FAR AS IT WILL TAKE ME

LIGHT AT THE END OF A LOOOONG DARK TUNNEL

I AM CONTENT

from my perspective...I am doing well. I am happy. I am learning. I hear my room mates daughter laughing, it's a great sound. I am hopefull. I am terrified, but I am ready to take on the world!

just to clarify for little miss Tammy lol
I do NOT have a secret potential boyfriend ha ha ha

you are so silly
if I had a boyfriend I would be shouting it from the rooftops lol

you should know that by now!

Anyway with the whole healthy eating and pilates I have now lost 10 pounds in 3 weeks!

I feel great and am actually getting comments from people that I seem much happier
I can't give all the credit to that though

I will be honest there are other reasons

I am still not wanting to say too much about it because I am trying to figure it all out still but I will say I am finding my way in life alot better then I used to :)

It's been a little while since my last post on here that talked about anything other then pilates lol. I just have not really known what to talk about really as pilates is really impacting my life for the better these days. I have been feeling really good and energetic from doing pilates. It has really made me start looking at a lot of things that need changing in my physical life and I can already see and feel a huge difference. There have been some other changes too in my life but I don't really feel like I want to talk about them right now lol. But all in all I am feeling a lot better then I have in a reallllllllly long time.

Anyway

I'll fill you all in more later as I feel more open to discuss lol

that's all for now I suppose I have to soon get ready for Pilates lol

from my perspective...i am becoming the new poster child for pilates!

Sure this may look easy but be warned lol it can cause injury to your face if not accomplished properly lol....it's all a great work out until someone falls off the ball lol. I love doing pilates - I have gotten better at it but this one was a challange today - I could not even get to that pose lol
my face hit the mat every time lol. However after just a week I am ALREADY seeing a difference - I am 100% sold on this!

faith

hoping

standing on

believing

whatever my lot thou hast taught me to say it is well, it is well with my soul

it's sometimes the only thing to hope in

when there are no other options

and the reports are final

first blog of the year

first pilates class of the year

i can't move

my everything hurts

took me 20 minutes to get out of bed and dressed today

no pain no gain right?

no resolutions - just life changes

off to an ok start

change of life = change of heart?

we'll see i guess

from my perspective...i'm in too much pain but it makes me optomistic lol